BEING YOUR MOMMY
No sleepless nights, no 3
a.m. feedings
No good night kiss or storybook
readings
No birthday cake in the shape of a
car
No camping out and no wishing on
stars
No trips to the zoo, no learning to
skate
No "wash your hands mister", no
"clean your plate"
No chicken pox, no meet the teacher
nights
No best buddies, no sleepovers, no
fights
No play dough, no pictures on the
fridge door
No weekly allowance, no rules, no
chores
No action figures all over the
place
No reading about dinosaurs, bugs or
space
No grass stains on elbows, no holes
in the knees
No reminder to say "thank you" and
"please"
No hockey try-outs, no rides to the
mall
No band-aids and kisses after a
fall
No calls to Grandma, no Father's
Day card
Being your mommy is so very
hard!
I wish I had known you for just
a day
to have held you before you went
away.
I miss you - your face, your
laughter, your touch...
I feel cheated, I am missing so
much!
I miss your childhood - it would
have been fun!
And I miss the man you would have
become.
I'm missing a lifetime of memories.
When all the moms talk - I've got
no stories.
I've got only dreams of how it
would be
And wishes that you were still here
with me.
I will spend my whole life thinking
of you;
Loving you so much and missing you
too!
Being your mommy has brought me
such pain,
But you were worth it - I'd do
it again!
Christie Hoos
A GOD WHO CRIES
When you cannot feel the light of day
and when darkness surrounds your soul,
When goodness seems so far away
and religion so hard and cold,
When you wonder if I have deserted you
and left you here on your own,
My love for you I long to prove,
Not a moment are you alone!
That is when I cry for you.
Be still my child and know,
That is when I cry for you.
You haven't got far to go.
Each time you look death in the face
and scream that it is so unfair,
Know that I have been in you place,
Don't think for a second I don't care.
When you groan under the weight of grief,
when you shake your fist at the sky,
Remember how precious you are to me
when your heart breaks - so does mine.
That is when I cry with you.
Be still my child and know,
That is when I cry with you.
You haven't got far to go.
Hold on beloved - I am coming soon
I will take you away from here,
To the place I have prepared for you
with no sadness, no grief, no tears.
That is when I will dance with you
to the songs of angels above;
That is when I will show you
my endless, incredible love!
Christie Hoos
- written July 20th, 1999
HELLO GOOD-BYE!
Where is the navigator of your destiny
Where is the dealer of this hand
Who can explain
Life and its brevity
'Cause there is nothing here
That I can understand
You and I
Have barely met
And I just don't want to let go of you yet
Noah, hello, good-bye
I'll see you on the other side
Noah, sweet child of mine
I'll see you on the other side
And so I hold your tiny hand in mine
For the hardest thing I've ever had to face
Heaven calls for you
Before it calls for me
When you get there save me a place
A place where I can share your smile
And I can hold you for more than just awhile
Michael W. Smith and Wayne Kirkpatrick
-written for Joey and Anne whose Noah lived only
2 1/2 days
Posted on the wall at the Oklahoma city bombing
site
AND GOD SAID
I said, "God, I hurt."
And God said, "I know."
I said, "God, I cry a lot."
And God said,"That is why I gave you tears."
I said, "God, I am so depressed."
And God said,"That is why I gave you sunshine."
I said, "God, life is so hard."
And God said,"That is why I gave you loved ones."
I said, "God, my loved one died."
And God said,"So did mine."
I said, "God, it is such a loss."
And God said,"I saw my son nailed to a cross."
I said, "God, your loved one lives."
And God said,"So does yours."
I said, "God, where are they now?"
And God said,"Mine is on My right and yours is in
the Light."
I said, "God, I hurt."
And God said,"I know."
K.C. and Myke Kuzmic
Stockton, CA
IF YOU WANT ME TO
The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I don't know the reason why you brought me here
But just because you love me the way that you do
I'm gonna walk through the valley
If you want me to
'Cause I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise you're not through
with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to you
Then I will go through the fire
If you want me to
It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my home
But you never said it would be easy
You only said I'll never go alone
So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear you answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering you love put you
through
And I will go through the valley
If you want me to
Ginny Owens and Kyle Matthews
- from her album "Without Condition"
